清空腦子

 1.  Some people, you just can't help them.  They can still lie and be ungrateful.  Said she never got her $75 CAN and dare to say other people had no friends when she is the one that truly has no friends.

2.  I really HATE people born in the year of the monkey, especially females.  My MIL, sis and SIL!!  They make my life miserable.

3.  Days go by so fast without work.  I don't even know what has been accomplished since I stopped working.

4.  Dad was not well cared for for the last 10 years.  He was lonely with no one to talk to or care about him.  The helper was not doing what she is supposed to do.  She is there mainly in the kitchen cooking and cleaning and shopping for groceries.  She did not do enough!

5.  Mom is incapable and selfish even though she is 15 years younger than my dad.  I would never forgive her for not being there by my dad's side when he needed her most.

6.  I am glad the buy out of the Vancouver place did not happen.  I bet once mom sold it, it will happen.

7.  The trust is giving me headaches.  I feel it's not written correctly.  It focused on the not so important stuff and has no real substance to it.

8. 

My Dad's Favorite

 Before I forget...

Inari Sushi - He ate that when he was in elementary school in Japan.  His older brother, Frank, was there, too.

He likes girls with short hair.  

獅球嘜花生油 香港 80年代廣告女主角

Dad loves Papaya Milk, tuna fish sandwich with chopped pickled mixed in, white asparagus, cha-shu bun, red bean ice, 

Time Line

2000:

Summer: Europe trip with TY & Amelia

Oct 12: Bought Yarmouth

2001:

Aug: Fanny came pregnant with son to attend ONJ concert.

Aug: Met our cousin Eugene Zhu Xia  (夏杼) for the first time with Shirley.

Dec: Flew back to HK (Kai and Angel were there too) met MSS friend Eugenia's newborn daughter

2002:

Jan:  Family Trip to Taiwan and to Tainan (Mom, Dad, Kai and me)

Mar: Found 4 kittens in the backyard and took them in. (Bagel, Twister, Toby, Bebe)

May 10-15:  Trip to Toronto (to Alice's wedding) 5/12-15 Montreal, dropped off kittens to Sung?

Aug: Tracy's wedding

Sep: I was in Vancouver, attended a wedding with mom (Wong's daughter)

Oct: Set up MSS server and informed classmates

Nov: Trip to LA and hang out with Iris at Getty Museum

2003:

July 7: Nicky was born

Sep 19-23: Trip to Honolulu, Hawaii (Orbitz $764)

Dec 25: TY's dad passed away.

Dec 31-Jan 2 (2003):  SJC to Burbank (Funeral)

2004:

Jun 5-17:  TY to Taiwan with his mom

July 3: Parents in town 

July 8-11:  Family trip to Las Vegas

Sep. 4: Trip to Monterey with TY, his mom and sis

Dec 15: Bought Hercules 980

2005:

Mar 21 - 27: Business Trip to Japan

May 17 - Jun 5: Mom from Vancouver to meet with TY's mom?

Sep 23: Wedding (Mom & dad in town)

Oct 14 - 17: LA wedding, Dad flew from SJC to Orange County

Dec 15: Bought personalized iPod as my Christmast gift.

2006:

Mar 6 - Apr 12: Parent went on a trip to Beijing, China (Great wall) with friends and sold the house in Shanghai

Apr 27: Sold Yarmouth

Dec 13 - Jan 17(2007): In HK, then trip with parents to Shanghai and later Japan with dad and TY

Dec 20 - 25: HKG to Shanghai

Dec 27: Parents' 40th Wedding Anniversary

Dec 30: Ran into Edna 

Dec: TY and his mom and sis to LA

Dec 31:  Spent cafe hopping with dad and had New Year's eve dinner with dad in TST!  

2007:

Jan 2 - 17: TY fly out from SF to HK then to Japan then to SF (our actual honeymoon)

Jan x: Went to Macau (1st time) and with TY & dad

Jan 2: Dinner with Edna and Christine at Christine's house at 19A 38.  She told me to read the book "Children are from heavens"

Jan 10-17: Japan with Dad, then we fly back to SF.  On the last 2 days, dad with 2 friends to 日光駅～中禅寺温泉

Feb 22: Made strawberry cheesecake for sis's birthday

May 27: TY down in LA to pick up Prius (-_-)

Aug: Was in LA to attend Joe's wedding

Nov 23: Gave birth to Ami

2008:

Mar 24 - Apr 27: Mom from Vancouver to SF and back (to help for 1 month)?

April:  Picture with CEO John Chambers during April b-day

Aug 15-29: Trip to Vancouver to see mom and dad.  (Ami less than a year old).

Aug 26: Callum was born

Dec 17 - Jan 11(2009): Mom to SF from Vancouver

2009:

July 9:  Iris stopped by my house!

Kai motorbike accident - broke 3 bones

Aug: Callum and Nicky came to the pool party to celebrate b-day together with TY.

Sep 17-29: Family Trip to Oregon, Seattle, and Vancouver.  Went to the zoo in Seattle.

2010:

Jun 22 - July 8:  Family trip to Vancouver to see mom and dad

Oct 9: Family Trip to Napa

Dec 22-26:  Family Trip to LA & Vegas (23-26) with Mimi

2011:

Aug 15: Saddle Rack

Aug 16-28: TY flew to Vancouver for work.  We made it a family trip to Vancouver to see Mom and Dad (Ami 3+)

2012:

Jun 8: Bought Warbie

Nov 17: Get quotes based on City's approved drawings

Nov 29: Family trip to Vancouver, flying into Seattle and pick up a car rental from Seattle airport.

Dec 5: Drove down from Vancouver and stayed in Oregon and mom bought an iPad.

Dec 30: Mom flew back to Vancouver

2013:

Jun 4 - 13: Flew to Vancouver while pregnant and coughing like crazy to handle Lexus registration.

Sep 6: Gave birth to Abi (same birthday as my ex-boss)

Nov 8 to 11: Trip to LA and San Diego Legoland

Dec 22 - 24:  Lake Tahoe, stayed at Reno Silver Legacy (with Abi very chubby)

Dec 31: Warbie closed to complete

2014:

Feb 27 -March 19: Trip to HK while still breastfeeding and pumping

March 8 - 11:  Trip to Seoul with Margaret

July 7-10: Family trip to LA and San Diego beach

Dec 23 to Jan 5:  Mom came from Vancouver to SF

2015:

Mar 22 - 30: SF to Seattle to Vancouver (Abi's first trip to Vancouver, at 2+)

Sep 17 - 19: Disneyland (Ami 7+)

Nov 2 - 23: SF to Hong Kong (by myself)

Nov 5 - 9: from Hong Kong to Taipei (Dad and I)

Nov 11-18: from Hong Kong to Japan (Dad and I)

Nov 16: Hakone

2016:

April 11 - 17: Family trip to Seattle and Vancouver

Dec 27:  Parent's 50th wedding anniversary - didn't do anything. :-(

2017:

Apr 7:  Bought Westridge

May 27 - Jun 25: Fly from SF to HK to take dad's money back from Taiwan

Jun 5 - 8: Mom and I flew to Taiwan, Dad refused to fly

June 14 - 18: Flew from Hong Kong to Taiwan to help dad transfer his money back (Dad, mom, and me)

Aug 19 - 21:  Total Solar Eclipse trip to Oregon (Western Oregon University)

Sep 8: Sold Hercules 845

Nov 16 - 29:  SF to Hong Kong (Ami and me for her 10th b-day!)

2018:

May 25 - 27: Yosemite Trip

Jun 11 - 25: Took Ami to HKG

Oct 17 - Dec 26:  took Abi to HK to spend time with dad and mom came, too!

2019:

Mar 24:  Flew back to HK for Kai's wedding (mom)

2020:

Feb 7:  B Liu passed away in the morning.

March: COVID shelter-in-place

Jun: Went to ER

Oct 5: Last day at work

Dec 6: Dad passed away at 6pm. :'(

Dec 6-7: I got really sick.  Stomach pains, threw up on the street, came back, had the chills, and more stomach pains, took pain killer and potato starch + salt. 

Dec 11: Abi bumped his head running around in the house and bled.

Trade Notes

 Turtle:

What to buy

How much to buy

When to buy 

When to get out of a winning position/ a losing position

===============================================

More volatile, smaller position - can only have 1% loss

Short Term Breakout: 20-DMA 

Long Term Breakout : 55-day Average price

Turtles with no stops go broke!

You can never go broke taking a profit.

10% in cash.

TSLA, SQ, 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     

Retirement log - first 30 days

Oct 5.  Did not attend any meeting.  Signed the ER doc and signed off before noon.  

Day 1, very excited.  Got up early.  Look at stocks and listen to CNBC.  Had lunch, and tea time, snacks.  Enjoyed my dad thoroughly.  Talked to ex-coworker on LinkedIn to discuss on solo 401k plan.  Took online LinkedIn training...

Day 2, not as excited.  Did not look at stock that much.  Drank 3 coffee, had massage before going to sleep.

Day 3, not as excited.  Decided to apply for a job with friend's referral.  Got very excited, decided to read up on the company and prepare for interview questions.  Talk to LinkedIn friend about looking for a job on the 3rd day of ER.  LOL.

Day 4, got rejected saying they have decided to proceed with other candidates.  Feel sad, mad, insulted.  Not even a chance to talk and got rejected.... Stopped all reading about the company. Then in the middle of the night, got another rejection from another company that I submitted my resume.  Something about my LinkedIn or resume is not right.  I need to fix it.

Then I got the inspiration to write the movie script:  liang bei zi.

Texted my other friend at work and found out he got LR... but his package is still better.  

 def active_stdby_status (uut,stk_count):
    flag = 1
    log.info('Check the stack has elected Active and Standby')
    if stk_count == 1:
        output = uut.execute('show switch')
        match = re.search('Active',output)
        if match:
            log.info('The Active has come up')
        else:
            log.info('The Active has not come up')
            flag = 0
            self.failed('The Active has not come up')
    
    else:
        loop_cnt = 50
        for i in range(1,loop_cnt):
            time.sleep(20)
            output = uut.execute('show switch')
            match = re.search('Standby',output)
            match1 = re.search('Active',output)
            if not match:
                continue
            elif match and match1:
                log.info('The stack has elected Active and Standby')
                log.info('Now Check the stack are in Ready state')
                l_cnt = 15
                for j in range(1,l_cnt):
                    time.sleep(20)
                    out = uut.execute('show switch')
                    match = re.search('HA sync in progress',out)
                    if match:
                        continue
                    else:
                        time.sleep(20)
                        break
                input = uut.execute('show switch')
                regex = re.compile('Ready')
                check = regex.findall(input)
                log.info('Check : %s',check)
                status_count = len(regex.findall(input))
                log.info('Status_count = %s', status_count)
                if status_count!=stk_count:
                    flag = 0
                    log.info('Please Check the switch which is not in Ready state. Test Aborted')
                break

            elif i== 29:
                log.info('Active and Standby Election not done properly')
                flag = 0
            
    return flag

def chk_atv_stdby(uut,stk_count):
    output = uut.execute('show switch')
    match = re.search('Active\s+([a-z0-9.]+)\s+(\d+).*Ready',output)
    active_mac = match.group(1)
    active_priority = match.group(2)
    if stk_count>1:
        match1 = re.search('Standby\s+([a-z0-9.]+)\s+(\d+).*Ready',output)
        stdby_mac = match1.group(1)
        stdby_priority = match1.group(2)
        return (active_mac,active_priority,stdby_mac,stdby_priority)
    else:
        return (active_mac,active_priority)

 

 

def getshowswitchinfo (uut):
    log.info('Entering in to the getshowinfo proc %s' %uut)
    switchinfo = defaultdict(dict)
    uut.execute('enable')
    output=uut.execute('show switch')
    lines = output.splitlines()
    for line in lines:
        
        match = re.search("(\d+)\s+(\w+)\s+(\w+.\w+.\w+)\s+(\d+)\s+(\w+)\s+(\w+)", line)
        '''
        Switch/Stack Mac Address : 007e.9500.3000 - Local Mac Address
        Mac persistency wait time: Indefinite
                                                     H/W   Current
        Switch#   Role    Mac Address     Priority Version  State
        ------------------------------------------------------------
         *1       Active   007e.9500.3000     1      P2B     Ready                
          2       Standby  682c.7bf7.1380     1      P2A     Ready                
          3       Member   682c.7bf7.ce00     1      P2A     Ready                
        '''
        if match:
            number = match.group(1)
            switchinfo[number]['switch_no'] = int(match.group(1))
            switchinfo[number]['role'] = match.group(2)
            switchinfo[number]['mac_address'] = match.group(3)
            switchinfo[number]['priority'] = int(match.group(4))
            switchinfo[number]['version'] = match.group(5)
            switchinfo[number]['state'] = match.group(6)
    print(switchinfo)
    return switchinfo
    

def get_reset_reason(uut,stacklen,tot_sw_no):
        
        last_reset_reason = defaultdict(dict)
        
        for sw_no in tot_sw_no:
            cmd_to_execute = 'show logging onboard switch ' + sw_no + ' uptime detail'
            reset_reason = uut.execute(cmd_to_execute)
            reset_reason = reset_reason.splitlines()
            for line in reset_reason:
                if "Current reset reason" in line:
                    cur_reset_reason = line.split(':')[1]
                    cur_reset_reason_update = " ".join(cur_reset_reason.split())
                    log.info("Current Reset Reason is %s"%cur_reset_reason_update)
                    break
            last_reason_line = re.search("([\d/]+)\s([\d:]+)\s+(.*)(\d+\s+\d+\s+\d+\s+\d+\s+\d+\s)",reset_reason[-3])
            last_reason_line = " ".join(last_reason_line.groups()[2].split())
            last_reset_reason[sw_no]['switch_number'] = sw_no
            last_reset_reason[sw_no]['current_reset_reason'] = cur_reset_reason_update
            last_reset_reason[sw_no]['last_reason_line'] = last_reason_line
        return last_reset_reason
    

stack3-nyquist-1#sho logg onboard switch 1 uptime det
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
UPTIME SUMMARY INFORMATION
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
First customer power on : 12/21/2018 07:25:42
Total uptime            :  1  years  18 weeks  6  days  20 hours  12 minutes
Total downtime          :  0  years  21 weeks  4  days  4  hours  16 minutes
Number of resets        : 932
Number of slot changes  : 6
Current reset reason    : Image Install
Current reset timestamp : 09/25/2020 14:54:39
Current slot            : 1
Chassis type            : 0
Current uptime          :  0  years  0  weeks  4  days  17 hours  0  minutes
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
UPTIME CONTINUOUS INFORMATION
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Time Stamp          | Reset                       | Uptime
MM/DD/YYYY HH:MM:SS | Reason                      | years weeks days hours minutes
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
09/22/2020 16:39:24   Reload reason not captured    0     0     0     0     10
09/22/2020 16:44:06   Reload Command                0     0     0     0     0  
09/22/2020 16:51:56   Reload reason not captured    0     0     0     0     5  
09/22/2020 17:07:14   Reload reason not captured    0     0     0     0     10
09/25/2020 12:27:14   Image Install                 0     0     0     2     59
09/25/2020 14:54:39   Image Install                 0     0     0     2     0  
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

def Cycle(uut,ip,power_port,outlet_number,power_unit_username,power_unit_password,pdu_type,telnet_ssh):
        time.sleep(4)
        child = pexpect.spawn(telnet_ssh + " " + ip + " " + power_port,timeout = 300)
        if pdu_type == '':
            child.expect('Username:',timeout = 300)
            child.sendline(power_unit_username)
            child.expect('Password:',timeout = 300)
            child.sendline(power_unit_password)
            child.expect(['#', '>'],timeout = 300)
        else:
            child.expect(['#', '>'],timeout = 300)
        log.info(child)
        try:
            if pdu_type != '':
                outlet_number = outlet_number.replace(',',' ')
                poweroff_cmd = "/OFF " + str(outlet_number) + ',y'
                poweron_cmd = "/ON " + str(outlet_number) + ',y'
            else:
                poweroff_cmd = "power outlets "+outlet_number+" off /y"
                poweron_cmd = "power outlets "+outlet_number+" on /y"
                    
            child.sendline(poweroff_cmd)
            child.sendline('\r')
            log.info('sent off to outlet %s %s'%(ip,outlet_number))
            time.sleep(10)
            child.sendline(poweron_cmd)
            child.sendline('\r')
            log.info('sent on to outlet %s %s'%(ip,outlet_number))
            child.sendline('\r')
            child.expect(['#', '>'],timeout = 300)
            string_op = child.before.decode('utf-8')
            log.info("Power cycle command was issued and executed")
            if(re.search(r"\^",string_op)):
                raise InvalidExcpt
        except InvalidExcpt:
            log.info("Power Cycle command was not executed \n Command to power cycler was invalid")
       
        return

 

 

#sho iox

IOx Infrastructure Summary:
---------------------------
IOx service (CAF)              : Running
IOx service (HA)               : Running
IOx service (IOxman)           : Running
IOx service (Sec storage)      : Not Running
Libvirtd                       : Running
Dockerd                        : Running
Application DB Sync Info       : Available
Sync status                    : Successful
Last application sync time     : 2020-09-28 20:46:50.069589

    

        out=uut1.execute("show iox-service")

        if((re.search("IOx\s+service\s+\(HA\)\s*\:\s*Running",out)) and (re.search("IOx\s+service\s+\(CAF\)\s*\:\s*Running",out)) and (re.search("IOx\s+service\s+\(IOxman\)\s*\:\s*Running",out
)) and (re.search("Libvirtd\s*\:\s*Running",out))) :
            log.info('PASS : IOX service is running')
        else :
            self.failed('FAIL : IOX service is NOT running')

Questions to ask Interviewer

 

1. What are the main reasons you work for [Company]?
2. What is main organizational values and work culture like?
3. How often do you work on weekends or till late at night?
4. How is performance review conducted here?
5. What is the main difference between your previous work environment and [company]?

Early Retirement !!

So I have finally decided to take the early retirement (ER) package today (Sep 2, 2020).  

 

It was quite a personal roller-coaster ride to come to the final decision as I am still too young to retire, to be honest.

When the ER package was first announced, I was super elated to be qualified.  The magic number is minimum age: 50 years old + minimum 7 years of service > = 62.  Not only do I meet the number 62, my number is 72!!!!  I was so happy to final qualified!  The last time there was an ER package, according to the internet was 2011 and 2009.  There is no way I can work at my position for another 9 years and I definitely can not see myself doing the same thing for the next 3-5 years.  I am all burnt out.  Also, because many of my colleagues are now VP or Senior VP or Director already and that got me seriously thinking what am I doing with my career.  Even though I have no wish to be in their seats, I also would not like to keep doing the same thing as I did for the last 22 years.  It's time for a change and it feels good, not it feels great to be paid to make a change. So I willing clicked Accept for the ER package.

For a week, I was happy and contented with my decision and did nothing except talking to all those I know SHOULD qualify to see what they have decided.  I did a count today and it was 26 people I talked/texted/messaged to outside from my family.  They are all helpful in a way.  Some qualified but have situations that forced them to not take the package, there are a ton of them just missed the age requirement by a few months to a few years and are pulling their hair for not being qualified.  The exit day for ER is Oct 5.  After that, LR - limited restructuring will hit on Oct 7.  Those will be people not taking ER and the low performer, most dispensable folks in the company.  I could very well be in that bucket if I have not chosen to take ER.  Who knows?  I think even the managers or VPs would not know as the top will be tabulating the number of ER folks and then see how many more to hit the bottom line for cost savings. Anyway, I was all set to retire and feel energized to work on my resume.

On the last day of the ER acceptance window, I woke up and panicked and went back to click on DECLINE for ER package.  What happened was the day before, my ex-manager texted me after hearing that I have decided to leave my job.  He told me he could arrange an interview for me with the company he is with.  I thought, WOW, that's GREAT!!  Whoever is so nice to let him know I am open to new job is doing me such a big favor!!  I feel thankful.  Then he told me the minimal requirements for the position (which pay less than my current position as it's a smaller company) and told be to be prepared and send him the resume.  LinkedIn also shows how much that position will pay - approximately.  It will be a 32% pay cut!!  I was sort of shocked.  I think I was given a dose of reality at that point.  I feel I am crazy to give up my well-paid job to go interview for something that pay less and probably have to work as hard if not MORE hard.  What am I doing?  Did I make my decision too hastily?  I am still young, I should work, the pay is good.  I just need to learn to manage my time better and set limits. I can actually make my job less stressful if I just be more focus and better plan out my time. Plus, someone told me since LR is likely, why not work till LR and get extra 1.5 month pay and if impacted will get similar ER package (the enhanced LR package).  So I quickly went to the ER portal and clicked DECLINE.  

I was sitting nervously at my desk ready to begin my day to work.  I took PTO yesterday.  I couldn't focus.  I ran upstairs to tell my husband about my latest decision.  He smiled and said really?  What changed your mind.  He is supportive either way so the decision is entirely on me. I told him my line of thinking.  He smiled again and think it's good that I got some other perspectives.  Then he went back to his work, again "integrated" with his chair as one.  I could not sit still.  I quickly talk to (texted) my confidants at work on my latest decision so they don't feel I lied to them and share my reasons.  First one I talked to, Tom, told me I should Accept and try the new position that has landed on my lap.  He thinks I should not be so short-sighted on the pay.  Doing something new and challenging and maybe the startup will go IPO and I would be (more) rich.  But I told him I don't really want to do similar thing.  He told me to inquire more about the startup position but hearing how unwilling I sounded, he told me "good luck, whatever you decide, so be it".  

Then 2 people pinged me.  John and Michael.  They are both taking the ER package and they are not wavering with their decision.  They are surprised to hear my latest decision.  I told him about the lower pay job that has approached me.  He also thinks that's a good opportunity to try since it will be double pay - why not?  And he thinks there will be other opportunities so no need to limit myself to just this one.  He himself already have phone screening lined up.  He told me our job has flexibility so that's one good thing we all enjoy.  He thinks it's up to me, no right or wrong.  Then John, he is the one who gave me the case # that shows LR will get ER package so no harm decline now and later get LR.  I felt better choosing DECLINE and told him more about the startup position.  He reminded me the many roles one has to play working for a startup.... He also reminded me on how outside opportunities (AWS requirement) can broaden my skill set which will be a good thing.  So, the key is not to get hang up on the pay.  He said taking ER, we are in control, LR is a big IF that no one knows for sure, is that something I can live with?  I told him I felt I am the most dispensable person in the team with low IPF as well.  So LR for me is very likely.  And he assured me that I will get the ER like package if I get LR and choose to exit by 11/23.  So I am still good with choosing DECLINE.

After lunch and market close.  I decided to ping my friend, Robin, who always have the bigger picture on things, to help me reality check my decision.  I told him everything that have transpired and he told me this ER package is so stingy.  it sucks.  But even so, he would have taken it in a heart beat, it's a no brainer.  He said too bad he does not qualify age-wise.  He said since my husband will continue to work, so why don't I just take it, take a break and spend more time with the kids.  I told him with the COVID lock down, we are already spending time everyday at home.  He said I am not getting the point.  When I work, I am not spending quality time with the kids and they grow up in a blink of an eye.  I am missing out.  ***Yes, I am totally missing out.  COVID work from home and remote learning had made me more irritable and stressed and short-tempered.  The relationship can use some improvement, that's for sure.**. He is right.  He told me not to focus on the money and take this opportunity to start doing something I truly enjoy.  No need to work so hard, life is short.  *** He is so right again.  I know all this but just not taking any action about it. ***.   He reminded me that as long as one is working, both will have insurance so nothing to worry about.  He then decided to call me and we chatted more.  Finally he convinced me with this horrid scenario, what if I did not get LR but instead got transferred to the worst place within the company, then what?  I will be quitting on my own without any package.  Wouldn't I be so upset and have this regret for the rest of my life?  With this vivid but likely horrendous image in mind, I am quickly back to Accepting ER and this time is final.  I know there is indeed this possibility that I will get moved out to the other team under some terrible dictator style manager.  That would really be some nightmare comes true.  No way would I ever want to be in that situation.  No way would I let something that I can control becomes out of my control and be stuck.  With that worst case scenario, the final decision is set in stone.  

I informed my other friend Albert and Charles and Michael and then the clock shows 5:02pm.  The window for ER acceptance has closed.  I have made my choice to ACCEPT.  What a sigh of relief!

Now things will start spinning and we should know what happen next.  Stay tuned....

Vivid Dreams

I have not been sleeping much lately and doing a lot of scripting and automation at work.

Some of the vivid dreams that I still remember when I woke up are:

1.  A co-worker came to my house and saw a fat, fluffy cat and asked "oh you have a cat!" And I remember feeling completely lost and surprise and was like "Oh!  I didn't know I keep a cat!?! When did that happen?  Who has been feeding the cat?  What is the name of the cat!?"  ;-).   (Earlier during the day, I saw a big long-haired tabby on Instagram who knows how to communicate with his/er owner to get some treats.)

2.  My sis and I went to check out a small 1-story house and after we were inside, by ourselves, the house rotated and slid down the slope to the bottom of the road.  We were so scared and "climbed" out from the house and quickly ran to look for some sort of public transportation to go home.  We just jumped up to the first bus we saw without knowing where it will take us as the area we were walking around in was kind of dumpy and scary.  (My sis need to find a place of her own but we are looking at the wrong place(s)?)

3.  My coworkers and I were out doing some group activity or outing.  One task was to have everyone pull on a long leash and we all kept on pulling as it was so heavy. Finally, we were all tired or someone decided to let go, and then the rest started to follow.  What came crashing down from what we will pulling was a big one-story house and it crashed landing and was smashed into pieces.  (Our project is going to crash in the end!?!)

4. George W. Bush gave me an envelope with 2020 Olympic stamps from different countries. Then we went for a walk while I thank him profusely. We look through the stamps and they are from Russian and other countries.  Then later my brother and dad were also in my dream. I remembered it when I woke up but now I forgot.

5. July 20, I dreamed I was in an outdoor event attended by Donald Trump at some Grand historical building.  There was a gigantic pool to the side of the building which upon walking closer has a waterfront with gondolas.  So Donald Trump explained how it's so convenient to ride those to the other building instead of walking and so I quickly arrange it with the gondola operating team and got DT to get on the next gondola ride.  We rode together and talked and it was quite nice.  Nothing bad or indecent or outrageous happened.  And the day went on just fine.  I woke up still remembering it and my son asked if I had a good dream so I decided to jot it down.  :)

My beloved cat passed away

I am silently unhappy, sad, depressed.
She left so suddenly (early morning of 2/7/2020 Friday) that we have no chance to say goodbye or to be by her side.  She must have felt so alone and sad.  So much regrets and sadness engulfed me.  Even papa cried when he came to the room to tell me in the morning.  It's so shocking.  When I went to see her, her eyes and mouth are opened.  Her body is not stiff.  She passed away lying down on the changing pad.  She has not eaten much as the food tray is full.  That's how papa figured out she has passed away.  Food untouched and not moving when called.
My hearts and my eyes teared when I think back the days that I can pet her and give her a rub and cuddle her.  How I wish I could be with her at her last moment and reassure her I love her and really treasure her and thank her for being a part of our family for 18 years.  She is the smartest and most beautiful and graceful cat I have ever known.  I really miss her.

May her be in a wonderful place with her mama and siblings where she can run around and explore freely and remember me once in a while until we see each other again.




                                                         

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

The song for my cat:




2020 To Do

Economic Improvements:

1.  What makes you happy. ++
2.  Study stock's microcharts (5-year price chart, Rev. Growth, Profit Margin...etc)
3.  Learning, critical thinking
4.  Celebrate often.
5.  Verbalize emotions helps you see things more clearly.
6.  6-hours workday - 30 hours a week
7.  媽媽必須做導遊，給孩子介紹這個世界。
8.  人的快樂童年何其短促，何其珍貴！
9.  我們在潛意識裡把自己對生活的期許都加在了孩子身上，希望他強大，希望他優秀，希望他不要惹麻煩。卻忘記了，他才是自己生命的主人，一切進步與成就都有發生的時間和規律。學會寬容與等待，慢慢地，等待那些生命的必然的到來，等待生命的慢慢成長，這需要溫柔的堅持。
10.  媽媽每次都用溫暖的懷抱和愛解決了問題。
11.  孩子是我們成人的老師。我們走在歲月的路上，遺忘了許多美好的風景，忽略了許多美好的事物，是孩子以一顆純真的心，用一雙稚嫩的手，幫我們一一拾回。這樣，我們在人生的暮年，才得以返回童真。